good intentions

Tomorrow finals start. I have my History of the New Testament final along with a paper due. Tuesday I have my Art History test and Wednesday my Anthropology test and then I'm done...well for the semester. I can't believe how fast time has flown by. Just yesterday it feels like I just stepped off the plane from Barcelona. Now I'm about to embark on another adventure with my 3rd summer at Camp Tejas and then another semester in Barcelona then back to A&M until I graduate...I hope.

Reflecting on how this semester has gone, I have to say its bitter sweet. My intentions of not becoming a super busy American turned out to just be intentions and not reality. Sadly my friends and other people in my life were not a top priority apart from God. School seemed to consume me and I'm sad that I let it. People are so much more important than school ever will be, yet I did not live that way this semester. In other ways it was a great semester, I learned so much. I came to the conclusion that it is not bad to be an American, but it is bad to act like its the only way life can truly be life. I was born in the US for a purpose and I have learned to be thankful for that. Adjusting from life in Spain was difficult at times, but all in all God has been so gracious. He has allowed my friends to be understanding and be gracious towards me. He has allowed so many sweet moments to just spend time with him. I have forsaken him so many times. I let my fear and worries about school consume me, rather than trusting in the one who holds all things together and knows what is going to happen and what needs to happen. The Lord truly blessed me with some wonderful roommates, which I am beyond words to express my thankfulness for their lives. Two of them are getting married and though I'm so excited for their new lives that they are about to begin, I must say I'm sad i won't get to live with them any longer. The Lord has also brought a wonderful man into my life that makes me want to fall more in love with my savior each time i talk to him. There is so much that I have not yet learned, but its not a race its takes years and experience to gain wisdom. Its been a funny semester, not at all like what I was expecting. I expecting to stay angry at the American culture, spend more time with friends than school, paint more often, stay single and lots of other things that just didn't happen.
Well, those are my thoughts. I should probably start studying for my final and finish my paper. Happy Thursday.